“I want to kill myself, but I don’t want to die.”
I was 10 years old when I said those words to my mother who, thankfully, was able to help me determine that medication I’d been taking after surgery was the culprit. The medication was changed and the suicidal feelings went away.
What if I hadn’t recognized that those dark feelings of despair weren’t mine? That they were being caused by something else?
In my EMF book Riding the Waves, Diagnosing, Treating, and Living with EMF Sensitivity, I share that one of the more sinister symptoms I dealt with was an utter hopelessness that descended for no apparent reason
Interestingly, although I felt these overwhelmingly dark moods come over me; I never felt they were part of me. As crazy as it sounded, I continued to insist that whatever was happening was not psychological, emotional, or mental. I knew something very wrong was happening. I didn’t have an explanation for it and I had no cause I could point to, but I knew myself. I knew that whatever was going on was outside of me; that I was reacting to something. I knew it in my gut.
Fortunately, I again recognized that the dark feelings were not mine; that they were being caused by something outside of me. Through diligent observation, I came to realize that certain ultra low electromagnetic frequencies were responsible.
While researching for my book, I came across a study done by the Russians in 1972. They observed that people who worked around ultra low EMFs had a higher rate of suicide. Decades later, researchers in the US observed the same thing.
Largest study finds evidence of association between EMFs and exposed worker suicide
CHAPEL HILL — A large and detailed study of the possible link between exposure to low frequency electromagnetic fields (EMFs) and suicide among electric utility workers has
uncovered what appears to be a distinct association.
The researchers don’t understand why low frequency electromagnetic frequencies contribute to suicide. However, having lived this nightmare, I can provide some insight.
In my book I give several examples of how electromagnetic frequencies affect our brain wave patterns. These changes can lead to mood swings, irritability, despair, and despondency. You literally feel as if life is hopeless and that it will never change, that it will never be okay.
It’s that hopelessness that’s the tipping point. If only there was hope that things would get better…
There is. Take away the problematic frequencies and the feelings of despair and despondency disappear, immediately. When I discovered the primary remedy for EMF Sensitivity, the first thing I noticed was that those feelings of despair disappeared completely. I no longer felt life was hopeless. I no longer felt as if it wasn’t worth living because nothing would ever be okay. I felt perfectly normal and healthy.
Perhaps the saddest part is that most people who are negatively impacted by electromagnetic frequencies won’t recognize that the feelings of despair are not their feelings. They won’t recognize that the hopelessness is coming from something outside of them. They won’t understand that the dark feelings of depression are a direct result of being exposed to problematic EMFs.
For more information, including remedies that resolve the symptoms of electromagnetic sensitivity, read Riding the Waves, Diagnosing, Treating, and Living with EMF Sensitivity.